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Ronald Gilden October 25 at 10:19pm
Joey,
My first order of business, and something that's been concerning my heart, is what's going on with your sisters? I've not seen either of them since Janet and I went our separate ways, and it seems like... seems like they're continuing down a path that leads to bad things. Anyway, that's what I was inferring from your post, but I'd like to hear more about your conversations with them, and where they're at emotionally/spiritually.
Subsequently, how are you, emotionally/spiritually?
I'd like to hear your (point blank) thoughts on this Torah stuff. I can see people are treating you roughly, and they shouldn't, but I think they just aren't understanding you. I talked to Blake about your communication style, and he assured me that there's a method to it, I just haven't quite figured it out yet. I wouldn't mind a more candid conversation about it with you.
I earnestly hope you're doing well. Get back to me when you can.
-Ronnie
My first order of business, and something that's been concerning my heart, is what's going on with your sisters? I've not seen either of them since Janet and I went our separate ways, and it seems like... seems like they're continuing down a path that leads to bad things. Anyway, that's what I was inferring from your post, but I'd like to hear more about your conversations with them, and where they're at emotionally/spiritually.
Subsequently, how are you, emotionally/spiritually?
I'd like to hear your (point blank) thoughts on this Torah stuff. I can see people are treating you roughly, and they shouldn't, but I think they just aren't understanding you. I talked to Blake about your communication style, and he assured me that there's a method to it, I just haven't quite figured it out yet. I wouldn't mind a more candid conversation about it with you.
I earnestly hope you're doing well. Get back to me when you can.
-Ronnie
Oatmeal Joy October 25 at 11:18pm
First, we can talk about my sisters. They believe in them. It sound nice. It is inspirational. They believe that each human is an infinite being! They either believe this or they at least say that they really do. Both my sisters live together, several blocks from me, down-town Portland, OR in some PSU (college) housing place. If you were to ask them, they would probably brush to the side a few minor details about their past. We were raised by our strongly devoted Baptist mother & alcoholic/ workaholic/ abusive father who was raised Mormon. Katie went to a private Christian school until high school. We all partook in Christian clubs. Crystal was baptised at the age four. She memorized verses. So much can be said about their past. I was just telling Blake, these last days, that it seems that my sisters are saved. This would mean that they are strongly denying it. Or were they ever saved to begin with? I believe that a person can know for sure that they are totally saved! Once saved then always saved! And saved to serve! But I also believe that we cannot know for sure that another person is saved. My sisters believe in being happy. They believe in the universe. I quickly retorted just last Wednesday in person, "But I can't talk to the universe!" Katie quickly smirked, "Not with that attitude, you won't be able to." My one and only brother was telling me, several days ago, that they are saying ok things about life, about making the world a better place, about helping others, you know, which is all good, but the only problem is that they're missing one key ingredient. Jesus.
Ronnie, so, therefore, first off, we can talk about what they believe. I am still trying to figure out what they believe. But I do know that they are brushing off their need for a G-d. They are quite self-sufficient.
Secondly, we can talk about me. I just want to help people help people but only for and from and in and especially through the blood of Jesus. Spiritually, I feel God's presence all the time. Emotionally, I feel strongly lonely.
Now, I can always say more later. Thanks for caring. Thanks for writing. Sorry for writing so much everywhere. I always have so much to say. I am almost as bad as a blonde. I can be very offensive. Never mind my intent. I always have a lot on mind. I am always trying to make a point. But I usually do so in an invisible way. Even if I had something good to say, I usually say it in a fashion that is always incomprehensible. That might just be the definition to parables, but I can't just always like be Jesus! But too often I think that I can just throw random thoughts out to anybody anywhere. I like think too much. Blake was telling me this today and I started laughing really hard. But then I quickly stopped laughing. It is like I am too deep. But is that why I am so lonely? Because I'm always talking in non-English style. And in doing so, I miss the opportunity to actually relate to people. I spend too much time thinking that I am better than everybody. Oh, I went to so many years of Bible college. Blah blah blah. How dare I. But in doing so, I miss the opportunity in communicating.
In conclusion, spiritually and or emotionally, I am always getting better. Ronnie, now, when you see me, I always look like a mess. This past year, I have been feeling like a mess, point blank. On one hand, I am getting better. But on the other hand, I do feel lost......... who am i.... where am i..... what am i...... why am i.... how am i..... but more over...... where am I suppose to be really.... who am I really suppose to be...... how am I suppose to really live for Jesus........ I even want to move to California.... I know some people down there..... so.... we can always talk more about this whenever you want maybe..... I will continue to think about what you wrote to me.... but this is just a quick response for now..... thanks again...
Joey Arnold: 11pm: Sun: 10/25/2009: 414
Ronnie, so, therefore, first off, we can talk about what they believe. I am still trying to figure out what they believe. But I do know that they are brushing off their need for a G-d. They are quite self-sufficient.
Secondly, we can talk about me. I just want to help people help people but only for and from and in and especially through the blood of Jesus. Spiritually, I feel God's presence all the time. Emotionally, I feel strongly lonely.
Now, I can always say more later. Thanks for caring. Thanks for writing. Sorry for writing so much everywhere. I always have so much to say. I am almost as bad as a blonde. I can be very offensive. Never mind my intent. I always have a lot on mind. I am always trying to make a point. But I usually do so in an invisible way. Even if I had something good to say, I usually say it in a fashion that is always incomprehensible. That might just be the definition to parables, but I can't just always like be Jesus! But too often I think that I can just throw random thoughts out to anybody anywhere. I like think too much. Blake was telling me this today and I started laughing really hard. But then I quickly stopped laughing. It is like I am too deep. But is that why I am so lonely? Because I'm always talking in non-English style. And in doing so, I miss the opportunity to actually relate to people. I spend too much time thinking that I am better than everybody. Oh, I went to so many years of Bible college. Blah blah blah. How dare I. But in doing so, I miss the opportunity in communicating.
In conclusion, spiritually and or emotionally, I am always getting better. Ronnie, now, when you see me, I always look like a mess. This past year, I have been feeling like a mess, point blank. On one hand, I am getting better. But on the other hand, I do feel lost......... who am i.... where am i..... what am i...... why am i.... how am i..... but more over...... where am I suppose to be really.... who am I really suppose to be...... how am I suppose to really live for Jesus........ I even want to move to California.... I know some people down there..... so.... we can always talk more about this whenever you want maybe..... I will continue to think about what you wrote to me.... but this is just a quick response for now..... thanks again...
Joey Arnold: 11pm: Sun: 10/25/2009: 414
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